Exciting sorrow

I am deepening into sorrow and I feel changes on the horizon.
Everything is strange. I am sad and in the same time excited for the newness.  For the freedom, for the possibilities. 
Despite the grayness my heart is surrounded by, I feel I love live. I love it even though I bitch and complain about it. And if I think about it, is it life that I am not happy about or is it people.